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I wish I knew how to use words to express myself...

(+) Halloween was uneventful. But Anton got a lot of candy, so this is a good thing.

(----) OPERATION BUTO IS FAILING MISERABLY.

(-) I am sorry I like food too much. And I haven't had time to exercise properly in so long. :( Oh well, I will make time.

(+/-) E has my vest ahehehehe I must stop with the infatuation it's kinda weird na...

(+) Saw R at Celeb! Hahah so random but kewt.

(+) INTRAMS NEXT WEEK. AND NO SCHOOL TOMORROW BOOYAH. And mini-fair is progressing! Go KliffComm!

(-) We just got our house pins last week. And we have no house shirt. Which means we'll probably never have one. And I know I sound like the bitterest person ever when I say this (and maybe because I am), but I think if I were house captain, we would've had the pins a lot earlier. And we would've had house shirts by last week at the latest... Oh well.

(-) You know what I realize about myself? When i lose, I get bitter. Really bitter. I don't know how to take a loss gracefully. Sure, I don't say anything to you, but seriously, on the inside, I'm steaming. I start thinking of ways that I'm better than you and what I would do if I won. Instead of helping to make things the best that they can be, I take pleasure in watching people fail, and knowing, rather, assuming that I would've done better, had I won. (ehem SI, ehem house captain) I need to start changing though. I don't want to be that person anymore.
They say the first step to quitting is admitting, so hopefully, I'll be quitting that habit soon enough.

(-) MY GG DVD IS BROKEN OR SOMETHING I AM SO DEPRESSED.

(+/-) I've been thinking of getting a haircut. But I really don't know if I should because it's grad pic taking next week, and I want to look nice. And I know when I cut it, I'll probably end up crying. Ugh, what's wrong with me; I can't even make a decision about a freaking haircut.

(-) Prom is coming up and I'm still fat.

(-) And I have no prom-spects. Huhuhu as much as I try to convince people otherwise, I'm still dreaming of that perfect prom (and the perfect prom date). But I don't think that's happening in this lifetime. I want G or J to ask, but that's kinda impossible because they will most likely ask Q and T. (HAHAHAH QT) Oh well, I guess I'll just hope E's an usher and dance with him. HAHAHAHAHA.

salkdna

OPERATION BUTO IS FAILING I AM STILL SO HUNGRY AJUJUJUJUJU

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(+) ACET was okay. I didn't finish two parts, but no one ever does so I think I'l live.

(++++) East with S, PF, A, C, and M was so much fun! DESPICABLE ME IS SO CUTE. 8-> And S got pissy after the movie, but whatev.

(-) There was a brief portion of the movie where I stopped paying attention because I thought I felt something (HAHAHAHA) but whatever I'm over it.

(-) ACET had no E's! :( HAHAHAHA I JUST REMEMBERED HIM THAT'S ALL KTHXBYE

(+) Not much homework for tomorrow! Just the English long test.

(+) Bought 4 new books yesterday (3 hardbound and one Nancy Drew adventure book) for less than P500! I love BookSale!

(-) TOaFK really is sold out everywhere! Guess I'll have to rely on the ebook R sent and hope it's complete. :|

(-) There were no cute boys in my ACET room. And I didn't see anyone cute. Bah waste of a good outfit. HAHAHAHAHAHA

(+) People noticed my lipstick AHAHAHAHAH HOW BABAW K

(-) I miss E agaaaaain. Why was he not born 3 years earlier. And in my batch. Ajujujujujuuuuu

no regrets, just love

i deem thee, kevin.

dear kevin,

WHY AM SO FAT i'm whining ulit. I feel my salbabida and floaters coming back nuhhh (as if they ever went away but still). hay nako I thought I was progressing. Amfukeke it's time for Operation Buto nuxxxxxxx

no more snacks (midnight or otherwise) and softdrinks

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do crunches and push-ups every other day (or every day kung gusto mo. bahala ka basta every other day, meron)

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walk 10 or more rounds once a week k

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BUTO BINKY (bb <3)

ajujujujuju I to be thin powhzZzZzZzzz

preferably before prom! which gives me roughly three months to lose most of the weight. ULTIMATE GOAL = BORA BODY PREH K

i don't have a weighing scale (how sad is my life) so I will estimate based on what I think I saw in mother's room last night

CURRENT WEIGHT: 150 lbs

GOAL WEIGHT: 135 lbs

CURRENT WAIST LINE: 31.5"

GOAL WAIST LINE: 28"-29"

friends who read/find this (no one): DON'T SHARE/TEASE I'M TOO PRETTY FOR THIS MOFOS

ajujujujujuju let's go bengkehhh it's so you can get a hot guy in collegioo <3

and if you (my non-existent reader or kevin. ewan i don't care) didn't notice, my blogging style is much less formal than the numbered posts (if you could even call them that). it's to distinguish the normal/SUPPOSEDLY daily blogs from the butoblogs

depressed and FAT,

binky

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(-) WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. My priorities are getting so screwed up. Instead of studying for Chem/finishing the Physics worksheet or the Math HW, I read K's LJ. Ugh, GET IT TOGETHER SELF YOU NEED TO BE HIGH HONORS.

(-) I am a very crappy, inconsistent blogger. As it is, I'm not even writing complete paragraphs (just pakipot bullet points). I need to find the time to blog. Even if only in this format.

(+) My stomach (read: abs) hurts. My arms are aching. I can't move my shoulders much. But I love the pain. SaGala love. <3

(+/-) I don't know what to file this under. So +/- it is. I need inspiration in my life. In the form of a male. TEEHEE. Idk if it's a good thing 'cause I don't have any distractions. Or a bad thing 'cause I don't have inspiration. I don't even think I like anyone anymore. Just EM, but he's bitchy, PMS-y, and WAY TOO YOUNG.

(+) Japanese exchange-student (from Toyota City High School) came today! Mizaki(?) M... something, who's staying with Arizza. I keep forgetting her name, so I just call her Sadako/Sayuri (secretly). Mostly, I refer to her as "Hi." I haven't really talked to her much (just for a while in ComSci), but she seems nice. She's only 15 and in year 3. I wonder how she's doing.

(+/-) Again with the neutrals (I AM NOT MACHIAVELLIAN). Remember last year, when A, C, G and J went to India for a conference? (Of course not, I made you in July, silly blog) Well, it's happening again this year, and guess who are going? LC, JP, GB (BB :">) and DP. D freaking P. WHAT IS THIS QUALIFICATION MY GOSH. I really hope I'm DL next quarter (so I can at least get a shot at going to Sg/UK(!!!!)) <-- Ew, that looks like a function. Which reminds me, I haven't finished my Math HW.

(-) I'm ugly. GOSH. I was looking at the photos J took for MM (which include lots of shots of my face), and gosh darn it, I AM A BEAST. What is happening to my life. I'm fat na nga, I'm fungit pa. What kind of life is this.

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(+) If the all the grades I've gotten are accurate, my GWA is around 1.540. Much higher than I expected but still not high enough.

(-) Huhuhu, 1.540 is still not DL. How am I going to Singapore/London now? :( And goodbye high honors. :|

(+/-) Now I have to keep it up. That means no more slacking, Binky. Starting right now.

(-) I'm hungry again. That's a bad thing considering I need to lose weight. A lot of weight.

(-) Ma'am Cion annoys me. I wonder what she'll say if I ask her if we can teach the teachers their dance next week. Or better yet, make them make their own dance. Ugh.

(+) Sayaw Int is actually looking kinda good, based on what we've done so far (which isn't much, but hey, it's a start).

(-) omgwtf chem probset!!! I honestly think I'm going to get really low, if not fail, this one. :( Which pretty much screws my chances of getting an uno.

(+) Hay nako, happy crush. <3 But nothing's ever going to happen. Le sigh I can always dream, can't I? 8->

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(+) Charm bonding <3

(-) 93. NINETY THREE. How rude.

(-) Sayaw Int... Sorry but I'm probably the best dancer in the section. And I'm not saying that to be arrogant. It's true. And they act like I don't know anything... So yeah. Bahala na sila.

(-) Ransom of the Seven Ships doesn't wanna load!!!!!!

(+/-) Sir Gerson said my photos were good. And that I layout-ed my spreads well. But that I lacked creativity and uniqueness, regarding my concept. Oh well, I knew that.

(-) HUMANITIES WEEK is coming up. Which means hellish requirements. :|

(+) 4 DAY WEEKEND. FOUR. DAYS. But I've wasted the first. Oh well.

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(+) I finally passed MM! I was too lazy to edit though, so idk what I'll get. I have a feeling my card grade will be 1.50 or 1.75. DAMN SON. Ugh, I hope I can uno by the end of the school year.

(+) New blush (on Sunday)! And cousin bonding, yay. <3

(+) I finished everything before midnight! Accomplishment.

(-) Jeans. With the Pisay skirt. And leather shoes. WTF.

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(+) Grad pic test shots today. Really fun stuff. I didn't like the barkada shots but whatever, we'll see when the prints come out.

(-) Shoot ended late (like instead of 2, it ended at 5). Not good.

(-) I ATE CAF FOOD OH NO.

(-) I'm getting fatter!!!!!! I can see my bilbil again!!!! NOOOOO

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(+) Starting over with a new blog (with the same old username). I felt that my LJ was a little too open for the things I wanted to say. But now that I think about it, I've forgotten what that was in the first place!

(-) The past month. Pre-hell week, hell week, perio week, UPCAT, post-hell week. And don't forget RT, Sayaw Int, SaGala Auditions, all the Humanities Week activities, AND the house pin that we don't have yet.

(+) The past month being what it is: the past.

(+) SaGala auditions <3